Feeling very emo after a "life talk" by our consultant

It was our last session with him cause most of the consultants will be on summer break soon :/

We've grown up
Learnt that with growing up means that somewhere along the line you stop functioning as an individual
The decisions you make influence the people around you
But in the midst of the complexity of all the decisions you make
You gotta still fight for your dreams

Today's been such an emo day :/
First met a patient who lost a baby after trying for 2 years. The frustration and pain and disappointment, failure towards her significant other.. when she broke down just there.. i could feel her pain and how she felt about not just letting herself down but her husband as well after he got so excited after kinda accepting that after two years they won't be able to conceive. I was trying to hard to hold back tears and i was sitting right smack eye to eye with her crying so bad..

Then, found out a young patient whom we had met before had died.. That seems to happen quite a lot here. But this guy deteriorated before our eyes in like 3 weeks. Our consultant was talking to us about death and accepting death and how sad it was for like the young families with so much to look forward too.. everyone just looked away fighting back tears.

The sweetest, most obliging and good people sometimes suffer and die young.. why? That's the story of life. It's not how long you live for, but the impact you make on the lives of others around you that matters. At times like these, i am glad that we have eternity in christ.

oh and another thing that the consultant in clinic said that struck me today is that sometimes, even though you're crumbling on the inside, you gotta be strong and stop the tears from falling cause the patient is looking to you as a pillar of strength and if you breakdown as well, they are left with nothing. They need to know that although everything around them is falling apart, you're not going to make things better, but you're going to be there with them through that journey till the end. You're going to hold their hard through it all.